Politics is everywhere.
Yes, one of my naggy post on human nature again.
Just finished a whole day of astro, rushing here and there for AF meetings and Messiea Marathon.
Aiya. Lots of things happened today. I’ll say, all due to human nature… and that different people have different working style..
Today, i ALMOST retaliated, as in, argue back.
Once i argue, I’ll make sure i win. And most of the time ( or all..? ), i will.
Get the point? Meaning if i explode, I wouldn’t hold back anything.
Which is why, i am seldom seen exploding.. because my tahan skills is… still.. erm.. quite good.
Don’t know why i feel an urge to retaliate today. Maybe c’oz it’s my lack of sleep. Maybe it’s because i’m irritated at someone saying I always think i’m fucking right.
Rough day? Aiyo. Hai hao la ( adopting someone’s jing shen ^^ )
What actually happened was, we were supposed to be presenting our topics to senoirs, for them to comment and to fine-tune it lohz.
And my topics so happens to be stellar evolution. Something which explains the stages stars will go through.
Halfway through the presentation, we were bombarded by questions which sounded like our PPT was DISGUSTING.
The tone they used, isn’t really friendly.
Well, maybe hostile is a better word.
Of course, being the me-you-all-know, tahan lohz. Take comments and everything. I’ll say, out of 3 commenters, only 1 gives really constructive comments..
And i do understand that, stellar evolution is indeed ever-changing, but there isn’t a real need to plaster a damn-fucking-you-are-wrong-i-am-correct smile on your face and tell me that my PPT is fucking outdated.
There and then, i could have asked, “So, can you tell me what are the recent updates? Sorry for being shallow, i’m afterall, still a noob with only one year of astro contact”.
Of course i didn’t. I still stucked to my policy. Giving other’s face will inturn, be giving yourself face. Of course, there are exceptions.
I still remember, that someone cried during the first few astro session, due to being shot by a direct junoir.
I still remember an incident so long ago, when i was told straight in the face by a few junoirs to fuck off. Well, not literally, but they drew out some offensive cartoons.
And so, I do know how it feels, to be shot right in the middle of your head, by your junoir, critisizing the things you have done. And what good will it do for both of us after that? Start to treat each other as non-existant? Bad mouth each other? What else?
And so, to prevent these things from happening, i often try not to use the “commanding” tone to talk to people. Well, maybe sometimes, when i feel there’s a need to.
For me, i’ll usually use the soft approach, as a position of a friend first. If all fails, sorry, i still have a job to fulfill, i still need to get my things done. I’ll make sure you get the things done the way i want it to be..
Sounds really demanding. Not really la.
And so, being shot there and then, i tahan and tahan, with the “spectators” getting uneasy. Finally, vern ( thks ) spoke up, and we were spared for… that point of time.
I do know, they are just doing their duty, of course, i put myself in their shoes and thought for them. What they are doing is not wrong. However, do you need to be so demanding? Do you need to sound DISGUSTED at our PPT?
And if you are so knowledgable, i don’t see you carrying any post that can let you use your talent to the fullest.
( I know i sound damn bad at this statement, aiya, just let me be ba.. )
I mean, yeah la, a post is just a post, but if you are so knowledgable, and you sounded irritated talking to noobs like us, it just shows how much character you have in you.
There’s this phrase, quoted from WWE.
“Know your role, and shut your mouth.”
AF isn’t going very smoothly too, maybe c’oz of the lack in communication. Being in NPCC helped me a lot actually.
It made me see through the fact that everyone has got different styles of working, and that one have to take a step back and work with the other to maximize potential of both.
Guess i’m the one who always takes a step back. I’ll try to accomodate the other’s working style, but i’ll be determined with my own stand to.
Communication is the key to everything. Actually, Adam made me realised this too. Nothing can’t be talked out. Talk it out, and find a solution. Solves the problem faster.
I digressed again.
I think it’s just human nature, to be unhappy about things ba. Some of them keeps them in his heart ( like me..? Hmmm.. ), some of them thinks it’s a waste of time to keep quiet and voices it out daringly.
Different people, different working style. One person takes a step back. Everything’s fine.
( Guess i’m gonna be like rick le. Lolx.. though sometimes, i don’t approve of his style also.. )
Hope…. this thing blows over soon.
And oh. Adding on to the knowledgable part. It’s doesn’t mean, if you are older, you are better. I did my homework for that presentation. I know my things ( though maybe still 3/4 bucket. ). At least i put in effort. I don’t see my effort recognised.
Another thing Miao Qin said. She said, she wanted us to fu ( as in, willingly listen to them ) them.
I beg to differ. Respect is something to be earned. Not something to be demanded to have.
Guess i brought my point across.
And oh, sorry for being naggy, but john went to scold them for us. He thinks they are unreasonable too. Ha.
Ahhh.. I feel so much better. Sorry if i’m a pest to you guys just now
“My heart…not perfect… but it’s.. true…”